Wow, fortunately or unfortunately, God has again directly shaped the circumstances in my life. This time, it happened just hours after I posted my last blog.

I think the spirit of the last blog was: constantly be good to people, sustain a great impression and be diligent in all I do. If you mess up something so bad in the past, I can hope that people will forgive and forget, but I shouldn't expect it. The previous blog posting was written about past relationships, but God used that to let me understand what was about to happen at work.

A little vague, I know.

On the bright side, on another topic, I think I completely killed the Foreign Service Exam that I took yesterday. It was supernatural. All the questions were like perfectly tailored for me. I think He's behind this. We'll see what happens.

Past hurt and broken trust

I am hopelessly naïve to believe that since people can change for the better--and that mistakes are opportunities to learn so long as they are not repeated—they will be forgiven for past wrongs.

A close friend reminded me yesterday that when a person gets so hurt by someone, they may never learn to trust, love and open up to that person again, ever. His honest opinion was that the door was forever closed on those friendships and relationships. I weakly argued that people change and circumstances change. His words were hard for me to hear, but hearing it dissolved my naivete.

I look back on certain mistakes and ways I have been naively hurtful in my past. Instead of having them disappear into a blank slate, I realize that I will have to accept and live with them every day for the rest of my life.